I have always guarded and very much enjoyed my time alone. But not here lately. Perhaps I’m getting old. Perhaps I need a hobby. Wait. I have plenty of those, but none of which seem that engaging at this very moment. I don’t even want to read. Or maybe. Just maybe that one person that I’d really love to be with right now isn’t here. That’s it.
I took a vacation day from work today. It rained. It didn’t just rain. It rained a nasty ass drizzle the ENTIRE day. And it was only around 50 degrees. I didn’t really take a vacation day because I had something to do. I took it because I simply feel as though I need one whole weekday off – per month – from my job. I know. Do I want some cheese to go with that whine? You bet. Excuse me while I get a glass – of wine.
I only had one plan for today. It didn’t happen. I got the little weekday only kind of things taken care. The car serviced and all that jazz. Of course the place I take my car to is open on Sunday. But do I want to spend my Sunday over there? No. No I do not.
The rest of the day was spent fighting with this rain, running about tending to things that came up unexpectedly with my daughter. Things that I wished I wouldn’t have had to deal with. I am though, thankful that I had the day to take care of these things but at the same time I am choosing to complain. Why is that? I guess I wanted to do something else today but I don’t really know what that would have been.
Funny isn’t it. We have everything we want yet we complain. I’ve started a gratitude journal once again. I need to hit my yoga mat as well. I know why I practice and I know why I choose not to. And guess what? It’s none of your business. Today anyway.
So tonight I am thankful that I am here and that I am healthy. That my kid is healthy. That my family is healthy. My pets are all awesome and healthy. Apollo, the new dog is going to daycare once a week. He’s making improvements. Oh and we got him a shock collar with a zone and he hasn’t touched the furniture since. Who knew? I am thankful for the job that got me this house and in turn, I wish I never had to leave it on a daily basis. I am thankful that my washer and dryer are cranking away at this very moment. I could after all, be in a Laundromat. No thanks. I am grateful that I actually have two more days off. And that they’re supposed to be warm, bright and sunny and maybe, just maybe filled with yoga.
Think I’ll go and grab that gouda now. My work here is done.